Chapter 813  : Side Story, Lu zhichen’s past life (8)

However, there was never the word “if.”

If all the things that he regretted could be repeated, there would not be so many regrets in this world.

However, he still blamed himself.

He was thinking that if he had taken the little girl away from the Huo family and Huo Chulan, he would not have met the one from the Wu family and … Would not have ended up like this.

It was as if he had entered a strange cycle of thought. Other than blaming himself, he actually didn’t know what to do.

He just looked at her, so quiet and so well – behaved, as if she had really fallen asleep. It was as if he would guard her well and wait for her to wake up when she was no longer unhappy.

It was as if she was just joking with everyone.

Because he had suffered a lot and the little girl was sad, he didn’t want to pay attention to them for the time being.

When she was happy or coaxed, she would wake up and return to her old self, spoiled, willful, arrogant, and overbearing.

She was a little baddie, a little devil, and everyone’s favorite little girl.

Lu zhichen thought to himself, how good would it be if this was just a dream?

Dreams were reversed, and his little girl would live a safe and peaceful life.

Even if she didn’t like him anymore.

He actually didn’t have that many requests.

He just wanted her to be like her name, to be safe for a long time.

Lu zhichen stood in the same spot for a long time. Suddenly, he heard elder Xing say,”Lu zhichen, you should go back.”

He was at a loss.”Elder Xing, I …”

“This is our own family matter.” Elder Xing’s voice was hoarse, but it was firm and serious.”You can go back.”

Lu zhichen paused for a moment and suddenly said,”we exchanged Tokens of Trust. Back then, elder Xing agreed. Jiu ‘an, she is my fiancée.”

“How can you take the words of a child seriously?”

“Besides, she doesn’t know you anymore.”

Elder Xing took out the jade pendant and had someone pass it to Lu zhichen.

The color of the Jade had already become very dull, but it was still the one that Lu zhichen had given to the young lady.

He held it in his hand. This piece of Jade had been warm and cool before, and it felt very comfortable to touch.

But now, it seemed … A little strange.

In his hand, it was a bone – chilling coldness.

Lu zhichen did not mind. He still held it tightly in his hand.

“Whether you admit it or not, Jiu ‘an, she is still my fiancée.”

“We’ve agreed on this,”

He had been standing for too long, and his legs were a little stiff.

The weather was very cold, and he wasn’t wearing much. His face was also extremely pale.

“I’ll come back again,”

After he finished speaking, he turned around and walked toward the door.

Her legs were still a little stiff at first, and it was not very comfortable to walk.

He didn’t take it to heart. Once again, he looked at the place that was surrounded and blocked by everyone, feeling deeply and longingly.

“Jiuan, see you next time.”

When he got home, Mrs. Lu was in a hurry to make him some ginger tea. He sat on the sofa.

Grandpa Lu was old and had stayed up all night yesterday. In the morning, he was already in low spirits and was persuaded to go back to his room.

Father Lu sat down beside Lu zhichen. Seeing him like this, he paused.”Have you found him?”

Lu zhilie nodded.”I saw her.”

Papa Lu didn’t know what to say. He patted his shoulder.

Lu zhichen only lowered his head and stared at the jade pendant in his hand in a daze.

“Is this the jade pendant?” Father Lu asked.

“Yes.”

Lu zhichen did not say anything else, and father Lu did not disturb him.

Lu zhichen’s mother quickly came over with a cup of ginger tea for him to drink.

Lu zhichen took two sips and could not drink anymore. He placed the bowl on the coffee table.

“Sorry, Mom, I don’t have an appetite.”

Mrs. Lu didn’t force him to eat. She only looked at him with concern when she heard him say this.

However, how could she comfort him?

That girl was no longer around, and Lu zhichen would never be able to see her again.

Lu zhichen was persuaded by his parents to return to his room. He obediently went back, but he could not fall asleep.

He was clearly exhausted, but he still could not fall asleep.

He tried to close his eyes, and the little girl’s face would suddenly appear in front of his eyes.

He would suddenly open his eyes again, his forehead covered in cold sweat.

He was truly afraid.

He was very scared.

Lu zhichen held the jade pendant and looked at the red string on his hand. He seemed to recall the proud and happy expression on the five – year – old girl’s face when she tied the red string on his hand and said that he would be hers.

However, he had no way of recalling it.

When she recalled it, it was only filled with pain.

Lu zhichen felt that he could not do this.

He was running away, but if he really ran away and didn’t want to recall it, didn’t that mean … He really didn’t like Xing Jiu ‘an that much?

Was he in love with the little girl?

Did he really like it?

Lu zhichen did not know.

However, he closed his eyes.

In front of him was the little girl’s appearance again. She was snow – White, and seemed to have the same color as the White quilt and the snow around her.

Only her long black hair was still eye – catching.

He looked at her carefully and fell into a dream. He had already come to the little girl’s side. After a pause, he stretched out his hand and touched the little girl’s hair.

She didn’t move. She closed her eyes and didn’t even breathe.

Lu zhichen looked at her for a long time before he finally bent down slowly.

He was silent. His lips trembled as he kissed her on the lips.

It was bone – piercingly cold.

Lu zhichen’s heart was as cold as the temperature he had touched.

In his dream, he was looking after his little girl.

Lu zhichen still had not come out even when it was time to eat.

Mother Lu was worried and knocked on the door.

Lu zhichen was in a light sleep. When he woke up from his dream, the young lady was no longer in front of him.

He sat up in silence, put on his shoes, and walked out.

His sweater and trousers were all wrinkled, and his hair was a little messy. If an outsider were to see him, they would not believe that this person was the Lu zhichen who was so resolute in the business world.

He was someone else’s child when he was young. He had always been a figure that the younger generation in the circle could not catch up to. He was like a benchmark. Others worked hard towards him, but they still fell far behind.

He was the only child of his parents and was the ninth child in the family. Before this, people had called him Lord Jiu because of that.

However, not many people called him by this name.

He always seemed to be neat and tidy, always dressed appropriately, as if nothing could ever affect his mood.

This was the first time in more than twenty years that mother Lu had seen Lu zhichen like this.

Her heart ached, but she did not know how to persuade him.

“Mom, I’ll go after I pack up.”

Mother Lu nodded.

Lu zhichen closed the door and went to wash his face and comb his hair.

His face was pale and his eyes were bloodshot.