who doesn’t blame themselves more

it was too difficult to prepare a program at the last minute for the students in my class who were dedicated to their studies. In the end, your third brother pitied me and offered to help.

“you should remember that on the night of the school’s anniversary celebration, you and your mother came to watch the performance. your third brother had a piano solo performance.” I saw you that day, but we were far away, so you probably didn’t see me. ”

In the first half of Shi boyu’s second year of high school, which was not long before Shi Yan left the Shi family, she had indeed accompanied su Wan to watch the capital city No. 1 middle school’s anniversary celebration performance.

That night, not only did Shi boyu have a program, but Shi poran and Shi poxun also had one.

The three brothers of the Shi family had excellent grades and good looks. They were very influential in Jingdu No. 1 middle school at that time. as family members who had gone to watch the performance, shi yan and su wan kept a low profile. they only met the three of them in a place with fewer outsiders before they left.

Now that she thought about it, if Gu Qingqing had seen her that day, it would have been when they had met her brothers.

“i’ve always wanted to find a chance to apologize to you.”

gu qingqing’s sudden words made shi yan a little confused.

meeting her confused gaze, gu qingqing said, ” “Nine years ago, when you were picked up by the family’s car from school, your third brother actually received the news very quickly. your family suddenly took you away, and he felt that something was wrong. he wanted to go home immediately, but because of me, he was delayed.”

gu qingqing looked at shi yan with a gaze filled with guilt.

her hands that were holding the teacup seemed to tremble. ” ” i was still in class that day when the teacher suddenly came to the classroom to call me. he said that my dad had helped me to transfer to another school. the transfer procedures were all done, and he asked me to leave on the same day. ”

“it happened too suddenly, and i, i didn’t want to leave. i was a little anxious, so your third brother didn’t go home immediately. he accompanied me to the teacher’s office.”

I begged my father not to take me away, but my family’s situation is a little complicated. My mother has already been transferred to another place by my father, so I have to leave on the same day.

“Your third brother sent me to the airport that day.”

“i only found out a few years later that something happened to you that day. it was also a few years later that i found out that your third older brother had changed after that.”

” i often think that if i didn’t agree to his offer to accompany me to the office or to send me to the airport that day, would things be different? ”

so many things had happened back then.

Shi Yan had no idea.

Sure enough, she was a selfish person who only cared about herself. She didn’t care about what others did, but if she paid more attention to Yingluo, she wouldn’t care.

even with third brother’s personality, he still cared about a girl. third brother must have been moved back then.

“Yingluo, my business has nothing to do with you.”

shi yan said after a long time.

she should be the one to apologize.

Gu Qingqing had just said that she and her third brother had not seen each other for nine years. Shi Yan would not believe that there was no reason for her to say that her younger sister, who had run away from home, had not.

“how can it not be related? If your third brother hadn’t been delayed because of me back then and could have rushed home in time, you wouldn’t have been alone for nine years. although i don’t know much about your situation outside these years, but from the rumors i’ve heard recently, you should have had a hard time.”

“even if my third brother could come back in time, the result wouldn’t have changed,” shi yan interrupted her.

Rushing back in time would only make one more person sad, and maybe one more person would run away from home with her.

At that time, she had made up her mind to leave, and no one could stop her.

She never regretted her choice to leave, but she blamed herself for not paying attention to other people for so many years. She didn’t even realize that her third brother had a special girl in his heart.

If Gu Qingqing had not taken the initiative to look for her, she would have never found out.

and I’ve had a good time these years. It’s not hard.

gu qingqing looked at her and moved her lips, not knowing what to say.

as shi boyu had said, his sister’s temperament was really indifferent, but she was also really stubborn.

there were very few things that she valued, but once she insisted on something, no one could control her. just like how she insisted that what happened back then had nothing to do with her third brother’s friend and her third brother.

“May I ask why miss Gu hasn’t seen my third brother in nine years?” Shi Yan’s heart tightened when she asked this question.

if it’s because of her hanhan

she couldn’t bear it.

gu qingqing was slightly taken aback, but she smiled and said, ” “don’t tell me you think that the reason we haven’t seen each other for nine years is because of you? don’t think like that, your third brother can’t bear to see you carry so much.”

“It’s my own fault,” he said with a bitter smile.

“my family is a little complicated. we’ve been fighting for many years. back then, my dad was afraid that my mom and i would be implicated, so he sent us to the capital. Later, my mom and I were exposed and my dad had to take us away.”

“In order to not get your third brother involved, I completely cut off all contact with the capital after I left. Your third brother came to find me, and I knew he was looking for me. I wanted to contact him after everything was over, but I didn’t expect Yingluo.”

“my parents are gone, and something happened to me,” she said with a forced smile.

“others say that i’m a zither player that fifth lord jiang personally invited to the jade food house to take charge of, but in fact, i was the one who found fifth lord jiang first. My life was saved by fifth Lord Jiang. He has good medical skills, but he doesn’t easily make a move. I spent a lot of effort to ask him for help.”

“later, most of my money was used to pay for the medical expenses, and the people around me were dismissed. i had nowhere to go, and i also owed fifth lord jiang a favor. i heard that he had a restaurant that was recruiting zither players, and i felt that my zither skills were not bad, so i volunteered.”

” just like that, i stayed in the jade eatery for five years until you appeared in haicheng and the news about you and the fifth lord jiang spread. ”

“you’ve come to the jade eatery a few times, and i’ve actually seen you every time. I always wanted to find an opportunity to say sorry to you face to face, but I never had the courage to meet you. That was until Yingluo heard that you went to Qingcheng and met your third brother there.”

Gu Qingqing seemed to have not found someone to talk to for a long time, so much so that she wanted to tell Shi Yan everything.

She did indeed do so. She did not hide anything and said everything she knew.

“I still miss your third brother. I can’t help it when I hear about him.”

She originally had a soft and weak temperament, and at this time, her smile was bitter, which made Shi Yan feel very uncomfortable.

“i can give you my third brother’s contact information.”

gu qing qing suddenly raised her head to look at her.

After a few seconds, she said, ” “no need,”

shi yan didn’t understand, but gu qingqing didn’t intend to say much. however, shi yan wasn’t the type to get to the bottom of things, so he didn’t continue on this topic.

“i’m already very satisfied to see you again. I hope you don’t mind playing fifth Lord Jiang’s song in private.” Gu Qing Qing laughed.

“i won’t,”

If she still took it to heart after knowing Gu Qing Qing’s motive for playing this song, then she would really be too inhumane.

“It’s good that you won’t.”